I aint...........

I aint have the words to say
I aint have the heart to feel
I aint have the love to live
I aint the person I wanna be
Where is the honey? Where is the touch?
Sour and malign is all I am
My thoughts subtle and catastrophic
Flickering lights pass by my night
Death in my life and in my dreams
I reckon it will soon be over
Can it get any worse than now?
My present has leveled my past
Happy hours ecstatic days
No more whining and groaning
I reckon it will be the end
It’s gonna be fine!!
I’m gonna live it through!!